it's been a rough few weeks. kind of feel like i'm headed in the wrong direction in more than one aspect of my life right now. usually it's only one facet out of sync at a time...but times like these, when it feels as though i'm out of gear at every level, something big has to happen to resolve it all. what will that big thing be? waiting for the other shoe to drop stinks, yall.
i know that this tangle started because i started to live my life making up for lost time. i've been a bit out of pocket the last few months (year even? yeah, basically all of 2008), acting a little too big for my britches...and i don't regret it. i think i deserved it. but now it's time to hunker down and find a balance. i know that i don't want my youth to go to waste - i want to do all the stuff i can get away with while i'm still wrinkle-free & sunny side up but i don't ever want to regret not doing what i should have been doing now, later. cause really that's what got me into this mess.
so yeah, there's that.
